it's been about 3 months since i last sat (laid) down to write. not that there's nothing much happening but i dont have the discipline to process my daily thoughts and translate them into words
so how am i?
fine i guess. wouldnt say im very happy with life but at the same time im glad nth major happened i guess?
so what happened in the past months?
mar - busy with tax filing
end mar - moved into new place
apr - short holiday to langkawi with yy and kym (photos long overdue as usual)
may - salary increase
jun - office reno
current thoughts?
jaded. with work, with life. it seems like everyone's getting married or getting proposed to and im just stagnant in life. i guess some people prefer no change in life but no, i havent achieved what i want in life yet so i guess im not satisfied
but it's funny though, i rmb how 1 month ago there was a sermon which spoke to me about the exact thing i think about every day
i admit i can get pretty jealous about seeing other people get good things in life and forget to count my blessings sometimes
and as a christian i was very upset because i feel like i have done everything to serve the Lord and all i get in return is nothing or even bad things
and then that particular week the sermon talked about how christians should be called apart for god
non-christians on the surface may be getting better rewards in life
not implying that it's not right to chase after monetary rewards
but the difference between christians and non-christians should be our view towards monetary rewards
yes better rewards may equate to better lives on earth but eventually what's in God's kingdom will last
and i teared so badly upon hearing that
thankfully i was tuning in from home so nobody could see me cry :/
and last week one morning as i woke up in the bed of my rental room, i felt blessed that i could have this option of running away from my parents' house where i felt trapped and unhappy
many people even with money dont even have this option (':
it's tough i admit
just keeping faith that God's timing will always be perfect, that good things are worth the wait and bad things will come to past eventually ((:
