I.DON'T.WANT.

Pretty random question but did you ever have times that you told someone no, you didnt want but the person keep insisting you do it and even keep prompting you to give reasons to say why you dont want? so i experienced that today and till now i feel pretty uncomfortable that i couldnt say no without giving any "justification". what happened to respecting people's feelings and why cant there be no reason for just not wanting it? 

on one hand i didnt want to be the party pooper. to be honest there is "no harm" in doing it. basically it was having lunch with the other lg after church and the other lg wanted to go some random ulu place for lunch. one of the guys drove, so not an issue in transport there and home but i felt uncomfortable because we already had lunch with them last week and i felt very awkward having no common topics with them. not a big fan of eating lunch with strangers and making small talks y'know.

so i shared my thoughts in not wanting to go and asked them to go ahead if they wanted. however one friend kept insisting i did, saying things like "we will be there with you, it's just you were overwhelmed last week cos there were only 2 of you sitting with them in the corner, they really want to get to know us" etc and i felt even worse that she was downplaying my feelings.

sorry bruh i dont care if people want to know me. i dont wanna know them. but in the end i sighed and just agreed to go. introvert me (or is it just adulting) feeling damn mentally tired now 😭