“There is a place I want to go to, but I don’t know where

There is someone I want to meet, but I don’t know who.”

                                            

Finally finished one book!! For the whole year lol. And it’s not a compulsory reading or whatsoever. I watched the movie first before reading this so when I was reading this a lot of movie scenes flashed through my mind. Overall I think the movie was better (cos I’m a more visual person) but the book revealed a lot more about LA’s thoughts cos it was written in her perspective. The movie was more special because they made it such that her bday fell on 29 Feb instead which made her meetings with J more memorable. And the whole fortune teller part at the start in the movie. Which was what she based her feels on. 

I really think WLL was such a great fit for this role she really has a LA feel 😂 though a more klutz and innocent LA as compared to the book’s mature LA. It’s one of my favourite sappy movies and one of the local films I highly recommend! (other than crazy rich asians)

“The world is changing, but our commitment to you stays the same.”

So short a line, yet so deep and powerful.

Yes indeed the world has changed. Terribly. One COVID-19 has changed the way companies work, the way people communicate and commute, instilled fears and doubts, and sadly ended many businesses and lives as well. And it seems like this will be the new norm; things will can never go back to the way they were before and therefore the big question is, how do you still deliver and be true to yourself amidst all these uncertainties?

Yet above all, what changed has been the hearts of our younger generation. We concluded general elections recently and it has been nothing but disappointment (to me at least). I have seen how double standards and gutter politics have manipulated and exposed the ugly sides of people. The whole theme has been revolving around the need to "accept alternative voices", though opposition supporters often forget that acceptance goes both ways. 

It’s sad when millennials (mostly; generalising for convenience) only believe in the concept of change without truly understanding the consequences. It’s not about voting change for the sake of it, but voting whom you believe will lead the change. Change is definitely necessary but then again the latter option speaks of incoherence too, when they only judge candidates from single unlinked interactions and from one-sided social media posts.  Politicians and politics mean nothing of them today except for flowery speeches and (opposition) parties, nothing about traditional hard work and having the humble heart to serve. They are willing to risk futures and security for candidates who literally only appear every 5 years to contest.

Sorry call me a boomer, but I still believe that politics and leadership are about being present and being there for the people. You can still serve and "do your part for Singapore(ans)" even when you’re not a politician, and not just during election period, when you have the heart to. It’s not about doing it cos you get the "high ministerial pay", it’s the heart, your attitude that matters.

And all these new phenomenons like being “woke” and “cancel culture” etc have made things worse; millennials are using them so abrasively and so rampantly i cant even comprehend the words coming out of their mouths now >.<

But on the other hand, it’s true that constant doesn’t work for the ruling party anymore. Constant has made people comfortable and entitled. What happened to 饮水思源 and our lives, our jobs, our future? though i gotta acknowledge that the way the ruling party has handled this election was mediocre and somewhat distasteful. it's definitely not what the younger generation wants to see though it has definitely worked for a good 50+ years.

Tables have turned, the future is unknown and scary, and we all need to emerge stronger as a nation.

 #togethersingapore

To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment. - Ralph Waldo Emerson

One year ago, someone held my hand and sent me home while I was puking embarrassingly on his birthday having drunk too much soju. It was definitely touching and memorable. One month later I asked him if he could wait for me as I was going through my “issues”. Unfortunately or fortunately he didn’t and I ghosted him since. 

One year later these “issues” have not been resolved and I met someone else who gives me the same feelings but I’m trying to stay away because I can’t deal with any promises or disappointments. 

Is there such a thing called the right person wrong timing or are all the wrong timings all the wrong people?

#stormsense

Mark 6:45-56 tells the story where the disciples were in a boat, they appear to be stuck in a storm for what seems to be hours. they were lost, they were scared and then jesus appears on the shore in front of them yet no one notices. the verse says jesus was about to pass by and walk away but he didnt. after a long while jesus called out to them, but they were hesitant and thought it was a ghost, until Peter takes the leap of faith and asks if he could walk over to jesus.

it seems like a simple story but it's so deep in meaning. the scenario happens after the 5 bread 2 fish miracle, where jesus fed thousands of people with the offering of a little boy's food. having witnessed the miracle, the disciples still seem to be doubtful and forget that jesus' omnipotence.

i cried when i was listening to the sermon (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m9sLIQB5bmk) because it so accurately described my current life ): im lost like the disciples; i thought i had a direction but waves just seem to keep crashing and pushing me off-course. im tired of panicking but it feels like nth is ever going right and nth will go right ):

i know i just need to trust but how do i have faith again?