Catch up with two of my uni friends just now and we had teaparty yay! wanted to sing k too but everywhere was fully booked ): and teaparty increased price again boohoo. anyway how times flies. i met these 2 girls in Y1S2 when we were allocated to the same BGS group. we had 2 other group members - 1 guy and 1 burmese who always didnt appear for class and didnt do much project work so ended up we 3 girls did almost everything and got closer :/ that was 6/7 years back? and now they're both getting married! how exciting :D and then they started to share about how expensive it is to get married - the photoshoots, the hotel, buying house..really sounds like a lot to handle, both financially and emotionally :O

but at the same time im quite envious of them. envious that they are moving progressing on to their next stage of life, that they each have someone lifelong to share their joys/troubles with (': its really a fate thing to find that special someone i guess, and i really did have the thought that if i did find that someone i would have been married by now and probably have a chubby cute baby too (': i think im kinda wearing wedding goggles from watching B99. finally reached S5 where Jake proposed to Amy!! AHHH DAMN SWEET. he made use of the annual halloween heist knowing how competitive Ames was. i dont like Jake's character but i admit he can be pretty much a romantic aww. and i think the part that made me most in love was when he described the exact moment he knew he wanted to marry Ames. 28 April 2017 in bed when she was doing crosswords and she found a typo in the puzzle (': and to me need not to date long, i think 2-3 years is enough to see whether this guy/girl is right for you

but ah wells. no such luck in my life. maybe im destined to be a career woman. if i really cant bto with someone then i'll just buy under singles scheme at 35 haha. cant wait to get my house and renovate it :P

So i lost my cool on Friday..my boss and i had a meeting scheduled with WSG at 9am. MP from WSG called L around 8.50am to say that she and another colleague would be late. when they came it was about 9.20am, so i settled them in the MR first while i went to get L. later they requested for a projector for their ppt, so i went down to 1st floor to borrow from the sales people cos IT told me he didnt have any more spares at his side. by the time i got back, set up the projector and even brought the guests water, L still didnt appear. so i walked around the office and saw him talking to a colleague whose last day was that day, and i slowly and gently interrupted, reminding him that we had guests. he said ok, give him a while, and then after he finished the conversation, he went into M's room. i was appalled???

i didnt know how to face the guests so i just said that L was still busy and then i excused myself out of the room and stood outside M's room. by the time he was done (I THOUGHT HE WAS), another 20min had past, and he came out, and walked into another room to talk?!?! i couldnt take it anymore so i went to knock on the door and reminded him yet again. he then jokingly said in chinese that i was chasing him. it is not funny okay. we had guests?? and we made them wait for at least 30 min?? and i couldnt control myself. i rolled my eyes LOL and T who was in the room said that she and J (the one whose room we were in) saw it. really speechless leh.

and then more bullsh*t during the meeting but not going to talk about it. by the time we finished the meeting it was about 11ish? sigh. never been so embarrassed..

Of [paper] Cuts, Coffee and Conversations

Finally ended this terrible week. Aside from payroll week there’s also bonus this month so extra OTs and a lot more of unappreciation (okay there’s no such word)

Been through bonus period once last year already so I roughly know how stressful it is and how much work there is to be done (and the worst part was I wasn’t even eligible for bonus last year but I still worked my guts out ): ) so I was kinda prepared for it this year but so many things were happening at the same time.

1. T’s overseas this year so less help. Last year it was HMM. Forever only 2 of us doing work hahahha

2. But even with less help, both of us werent fully utilised? Okay that’s not the right word. Hmm both of us werent even 100% working on bonus that week. there's supposed to be a lot to do. supposed. finalize calculations, double check backpays, print letters (mail merging of 100++ letters), process payroll on top of the usual payroll stuff but we both still went home at 6pm that week cos we couldnt do anything? we only started to OT on thu o.O

3. T came back on Friday. 22 March. When my payroll was supposed to be approved. okay most of the numbers were done. BUT MY BLOODY LETTERS WERENT. they're supposed to be done concurrently?? like whatever your payroll numbers are, it's supposed to reflect on the letters? and after printing the letters still need to double check, sign, photocopy and fold. but wed the template for letters not even finalized yet??? like i dont get what my boss is unhappy about the template? and tbh now is definitely not the time to change. it's T-2 days! speaking of this more boils but okay chillllll. 

4. Anyway when T came back she got angry. Hahha it’s rare that I see her flare up. But this year I’ve heard her say the f word more than 3 times already. 300% increase from last year LOL. She was upset that the admin staff in other departments got more bonus than us, though we're all corporate functions. oh wells. i think im so numb that i cant be bothered anymore. the world [company]'s not fair and if not happy just leave lorrrrr. hahah

5. Friday night. my letters only less than half folded??? tmr monday liao. to everyone who got the letters, the date printed is 20 March. hahhaha 5 days to print, sign, photocopy and fold letters. well done.

On a side note I think I’m so independent that its crazy. I actually told someone that I want out of their life.

Conversations with kids these two days..

Pulled out a movie for the ss kids to watch on sunday. on sat when i was deciding which movie to show (Miracles from Heaven, 2016 vs Case for Christ, 2017) and i decided upon C4C in the end cos partially i couldnt download MFH LOL and another reason was cos C4C was on my watchlist for the longest time ever, i was very worried that they wouldnt like it, cos the movie was set in the 1980s and it was quite adultish (MFH's main plot was about the girl which C4C was about the journalist father) but surprisingly they were quite intrigued by it and kept asking questions! the movie starts off with the background of the main char (Lee) and then changes into a scene that sets the whole background for his journey. Lee, his wife Leslie and his daughter Alison were at a restaurant when Ali choked on a gumball and they all started panicking. luckily one of the restaurant patrons was a trained nurse and she saved Ali. Leslie was so grateful that the patron (Alfie) was there but Alfie said it wasnt a coincidence she was there; she initially decided to go to another restaurant for dinner but God told her she had to be at that restaurant that night and this sparked Leslie's interest in Christianity. and the movie goes on to talk about how Lee, because of his wife, started his discovery journey in initially finding evidence to debunk the existence of Christ but later believing in Christ himself.

and after that opening scene, Samuel (the naughtiest boy in class), kept asking me what would happen to someone if the person choked and wasnt saved. he had a very scared look on his face and he was asking in a worried tone. so i calmly explained what choking was, how people could choke on big food items (like the gumball and fishballs) and he innocently said he would never eat fishballs again. hahhaha. but of course i assured him that as long as he properly chews his food and not talk while eating he's safe. but he still insisted on abstaining from fishballs. aww hahaha.

and later throughout the movie they were very glued to the screen, they didnt make noise unlike usual classes and they even asked one of the boys to keep quiet so that they could enjoy the movie aww. AND THEY EVEN ASKED ME TO COME EARLIER NEXT WEEK SO THAT THEY COULD FINISH THE MOVIE ON TIME. wow. amazeballs hahaha. so so so different from their devilish normal selves

and then today

is a weird conversation with my tuition kid haha.
D is primary 3 this year and he was telling me stories (yes kids love to tell stories which are completely random hahaha) and yes his stories came out of nowhere (AND WERE ALSO CREEPY) he was telling me stories about dead people? babies in particular. i rmb his first story is about this girl who was pregnant in secondary school and when she gave birth she threw the newborn into the dustbin. and the police came to arrest her. what?? and the next story was more epic. it was about this maid who was tasked to take care of a newborn but the baby kept crying and the maid couldnt take it so she put the baby into the freezer. YES YOU DID NOT READ WRONG. and then she peacefully sat down on the sofa to watch tv now that the cryings were muffled. and then the mistress came home and asked where the baby was. the maid was so terrified that she lied that someone had taken away the baby and ran away. so the mistress questioned her, why didnt she chase after the person and why she was relaxing on the sofa? and the maid knew she couldnt hide anymore and so she pushed the mistress away and ran out of the flat. and i asked D what happened to the baby, he said that the mistress found the baby in the freezer eventually but the baby had died already. and of course i asked where he learned these stories from, he initially said newspaper, but then i probed further and he revealed that his primary 2 teacher told him all these "dead people" stories. my jaw dropped. not at the fact that he related all these stories to me in a calm manner, but rather WHAT ARE TEACHERS IN SCHOOL TEACHING NOWADAYS...i already felt so scared listening to these stories, what more a 9 year-old boy, but the fact that he was expressionless says that he probably is immune to such stories??

so so so scary teaching kids nowadays. i cant even imagine having my own. what should i expose them to first :O

sidenote: i used to think i only want one kid cos i will be able to focus more attention on her (i only want one girl! and i know what to name her already haha) and able to devote more resources to develop her but now i think i want 3 kids haha. totally undeterred by the challenging/weird conversations haha. anyway cos i feel that a family portrait of 5 will look nicer; like the 2 parents sitting on the chairs then the 3 kids standing behind. okay i think maybe my mindset has changed cos babies are popping up around me?? like kero just gave birth! (his wife i mean) and all the church cell people. cant wait to see keromyn (in person baby) aww (':

Good read: If You're Too Busy for these 5 Things

and..im too busy to finish this post lol. okay not true. it's just that there's so many things going on every day i dont have the time to properly sit down and have time to myself. work, church, community, tuition, ss, dinners, playtime, coffee..im envious of people who seem to have their lives put together. "seem". people tell me that i seem happy too. but truth is, im struggling with this #adulting thing. being in a people-related job isnt helping either. i cant sit down at my desk for 15 min peacefully without an email/text/physically someone coming to ask me something that's not related to me. urgh. badly need a holiday to recharge :/

Tuesday.
Taking my first legit MC in 5 years? cant rmb the last time i fell sick. stomach flu in year 1 while studying for biz law finals or food poisoning after yoogane with my and xp? the funny thing is, my body only falls ill on weekends. it's like it knows im a workaholic hahaha. but anyway i feel fine physically, just mentally im very tired. i havent had a good night's rest in weeks. just so tired of facing people though it's my job. you know i actually got scolded by one ridiculous staff ytd? *rolls eyes* sigh and actually my leg is aching very badly. is it due to bowling training on sunday? old le. meh :/