Saturday, September 28, 2019

Z: This is your problem. Republic City is flowing with spiritual energy and you can't even tap into it.
K: No, my problem is you! You poisoned me! You've ruined me! People used to think was unstoppable, but now they don't think I'm capable of anything!
Z: Blaming me is a crutch to make you feel better, but it's not helping you recover.
K: I thought seeing you face-to-face would put an end to all of this. But maybe it's time I realize I'll never be the same.
Z: Neither of us are the same as before. I learned to fly, but now I'm bound in chains. You have all the power in the world and the freedom to use it, but you choose to hold yourself down.
K: I'm not holding myself down, but my powers have limits!
Z: You're wrong. That poison should've killed you, but you were able to fight it off. You think your power has limits; I say, it's limitless.
K: Whatever. Before, you were always talking about chaos and freedom. Then you took out the Earth Queen and created the worst dictator the Earth Kingdom has ever seen. Thanks for that!
Z: I've heard rumors about her, but I didn't know she achieved so much power. She needs to be stopped.
K: Well, I can't stop her unless I get over this block.
Z: I think I can help. Let me lead you into the Spirit World.
K: No way. I can't trust you.
Z: Maybe not. But if you had any other options, you wouldn't be here now, would you? We may have been enemies once, but for now, our interests align.
K: I've come this far. What have I got to lose?

Z: Focus on the sound of my voice and clear your mind. [Korra remembers her fight with Zaheer at the Northern Air Temple, and he begins to suffocate her.] Let it play out.
K: I can't!
Z: You can. Accept what happened to you. Don't fear what might have been.
K: I have no control!
Z: [As Korra falls into a massive vortex of air.] Don't be afraid. Hold on! Korra crashes through the rocky ground, but finds herself in the meadows of the Spirit World.
K: I made it ... and you led me here. Do you know where Jinora and the others are?
Z: No, but you do.
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M: Do you think you're finally able to forget about what Zaheer did to you?
K: No. But I am finally able to accept what happened and I think that's gonna make me stronger.

(: #legendofkorra #learninghowtoacceptthingsinmystride

Thursday, September 26, 2019

it's been two months of an emotional roller coaster ride. lots of (bad) stuff have happened but im not the kind to share with people because im prideful. i dont like airing dirty laundry in public and def not the kind who openly admits she needs help. been trying to put what happened into words but unable to express it and i found out that it's really true to my personality

im a ISFJ, also known as the Defender personality

"Bound by fierce commitment, intense responsibility, and deep loyalty, the ISFJ is the embodiment of putting service above self in most aspects of their lives.


Weaknesses
1) Resistant to change
ISFJs regard custom and tradition with the utmost respect and can become anxious with a world they see changing too fast and people who refuse to follow established standards. ISFJs in full "tut-tut/tsk-tsk" mode may convince themselves that moral decay and a loss of respect for personal responsibility are destroying our society from the inside out, and they can become so immersed in pessimism that they will start seeing signs of degeneration and devolution everywhere they look. Diversity of thought and opinion are truly the spices of life, but ISFJs can become so enamored with orthodoxy that they forget this essential fact of existence. 

YES. just happened today. Joanna was telling me how she felt tired catching up with her friend whom she hasnt met in years and i totally agreed. i told her how my social circle revolves around people whom i have known for very long, i have no more energy to meet new people and get to know them and whatever, kinda tired seeing others so easily make new friends and do new stuff and im like just "leave me alone, im happy with my old friends/stuff"

hahaha part 2 true as well? for those who know me, my pet peeves are people who dont have basic work/people etiquette. for those who dont know me, they feel like i have high standards of people. it's not high pls. it's basic. *rolls eyes* also pet peeve for people who dont have standards at all, who dont work hard to improve themselves and think "that's just the way i am, i have no need to change"

2) Too altruistic
Loyalty is an admirable character trait to be sure; but it is a two-way street, and if the people we choose to trust prove to be dishonest or unreliable we must be prepared to walk away. Yet ISFJs struggle with letting go, and have a tendency to stay in it to the bitter end, convinced that this is the only honorable thing to do.

YES and YES. i find it hard to move on from stuff. well strength of ISFJ is that they have a great memory, they're good with detail so probs that's why they find it hard to forget bad stuff though it's taking a toll on them?

3) Take things personally
ISFJs are very private people, bordering on the shy, and this does not always mesh well with more open, unpredictable personality types. The social complexity of the environments they inhabit can overwhelm ISFJs and leave them feeling like square pegs in a universe of round holes. They have trouble dealing with conflict and a tendency to take even minor criticism personally. Combined with their stubborn streak, this can leave ISFJs feeling vulnerable and put upon, and they may resort to judgmental criticism themselves as a defense mechanism.

YES YES AND YES. Kero just said this to me the other day: "You tend to do this a lot, huh." yeah... im sorry. im just not trained to face things head on. i rather just back away and convince everything is my fault so that i have a 台阶to下. i dont wanna argue who's at fault, i'll accept it as mine and lets forget about the whole thing.

4) Overload themselves
ISFJs are known for their terrific work ethic, but over time this positive trait can transmute into workaholism and leave an ISFJ so overloaded that she loses sight of everything else. Workaholic ISFJs can be driven to distraction by their perfectionist tendencies, and even on those rare occasions when they manage to tear themselves away from the office and return home for a while, they will continue to obsess over their latest project or assignment, leaving them too distracted and preoccupied to enjoy their free time.

TRUE ALSO. Didnt want to leave the office today though it was 7pm already cos i couldnt make sense of the numbers and more apt example is that IT'S 2AM NOW AND IM STILL UP BECAUSE MY BRAIN IS ACTIVELY THINKING DEEP THOUGHTS

on the bright side i seem to be in the right job fit for my personality LOL

Sunday, September 22, 2019

我累了。
Never knew i could hurt so badly by someone but i guessed it did.
this year hasnt been the smoothest so far and it needs to end right now ):

Friday, September 13, 2019

Went back to the Indian shop at Blk 120 ytd. the Uncle so cute, he ask me why I so long never come already then after I order my drink he ask whether I want prata cos he remembers my order. So sweet 😭😭😭 and then he also said my friends came - two guys, one fat one skinny HAHAHA I think I know who he talking about but that guy not very skinny and the other not really fat luh 😂😂 Uncle I will really miss you and your food, thanks for being as sweet as teh tarik ice though I always drink teh halia ice haha

Tuesday, September 10, 2019

"Today was a difficult day," said Pooh.

There was a pause.

"Do you want to talk about it?" asked Piglet.

"No," said Pooh after a bit. "No, I don't think I do."

"That's okay," said Piglet, and he came and sat beside his friend.

"What are you doing?" asked Pooh.

"Nothing, really," said Piglet. "Only, I know what difficult days are like. I quite often don't feel like talking about it on my difficult days either.

"But goodness," continued Piglet, "Difficult days are so much easier when you know you've got someone there for you. And I'll always be here for you, Pooh."

And as Pooh sat there, working through in his head his difficult day, while the solid, reliable Piglet sat next to him quietly, swinging his little legs...he thought that his best friend had never been more right.

(':

Sunday, September 8, 2019

At Teacher’s lunch today
Elijah: Papa I don’t love you!
Me: hahaha very good then papa no need to pay for your lunch
YC: too late, paid already..
Elijah to me: but I love you!
YC: so you pay for his lunch huh

😂😂😂

Tuesday, September 3, 2019

read this article Andrew Hui [I'm 32 and I'm dying] (shared on my fb as well) and i teared )):

wanted to write about this after i read it, but before i could pen down my thoughts, news had announced that he had passed away on 31 Aug ):

i have always loved this kind of stories about transformation in Christ because i believe in the power of Christ though i admit i havent been the best advocate of Christianity.

death to some people may be a sensitive and taboo topic but in Christianity we believe in the afterlife and the concept of heaven so it isnt much of an avoided topic but in the physical sense death is still very scary and most people have the luxury to not think about it until they're well into their 70 and 80's. but andrew doesnt. he's just 32 and the 30s are when people are just starting out their lives - a new career, a new life stage, a newborn..it's just very sad to know while people are counting up to milestones, he's counting down to the day he disappears )): countdowns are supposed to be magical, to celebrate good times..like a new year, a holiday, a new job..im reminded of the movie In Time (starring Justin Timberland) where he lives in this fictional world in which money is time and everyone has this life watch that shows you how much time/money you have and when you reach 0 you just die :O

but im glad Andrew wasnt alone in his journey. sure it'll be terrifying knowing that your days are limited but im really inspired that he found peace in the Lord. as Christians not many of us can say we fully trust our God. not when your clock is ticking, not when you are fired from your job, not when you're crippled in debts and definitely not when everything is spiralling out of control. believing in God has so much more meaning to just receiving blessings in your life, it's also about continuation to have faith even when bad comes your way like Job.

so thank your Andrew, you've been a blessing (': may you rest well in God's embrace

..the last enemy that shall be destroyed is death (1 Corinthians 15:26)