you know how people always say that if you're in one place for too long, it's just hard for you to leave and you end up being stuck there too long? usually people refer to this for career progressions, but for me it's about my parents' house. 

so previously i talked about house hunting (which i havent been very active about) truth be told ive been holding back cos im kinda like at a dilemma at it, firstly i know that they are my parents and i should be more patient with and rent in singapore is really expensive and all that but there are like many many things which trigger me time and again. like this week they kept asking me when i would be home on sunday cos they 三缺一 (eng translation: missing 1 leg for mahjong) and they keep insisting i play. i really really just wanna rest on weekends and not be forced to sit down to entertain relatives and even more so, listen to their sarcasm whenever i win or how im the only one working so i should pay for this and that and blah. the worst thing is they treat this like a religion. people laugh when i tell them my house is like a gambling den on sundays but i dont know how to express how uncomfortable i am with them being so fervent about playing every single week from afternoon to night (like 8h??) and still make a competition out of it.

i dont like being guilt-tripped (nobody does right) and it sucks even more to hear these kind of words from your own mother. and i really dont like festive celebrations cos you guessed it, they always ask for me to be home so i can entertain relatives. probably cos im the youngest and maybe still unmarried and stuck in the household i guess. and i did try to talk to my mother about it but she just dismisses it and says things like "oh they come to our house what, you dont need to go out what" like cos im in the house i have to do things that she wants. im really tired of all these

anyway so today after i went to church and had lunch and i went back home i went straight to my room and took a nap. i woke up from my nap about 8plus, but i continued to stay in my room cos i could still hear them playing outside and calling my name to go out to play cos my father who took over me was losing badly. but i just pretended to not be awake because i didnt want to go out to entertain relatives. can anyone understand that im not anti-social, i just want to have time alone and because it's relatives coming to my house i cant run away?

can someone adopt me pls ):