Watched More than Blue 《比悲伤更悲伤的故事》with Keromyn ytd, the tear-jerking movie which everyone is raving about. i really brought along a huge pack of tissue because i expected myself to cry a lot with my low tearing point (I even cry at monster-fighting movies like Pacific Rim?!?!) Surprisingly my floodgates didnt open whereas Kero was crying buckets next to me LOL. Perhaps im heartless after all. haha no la. let me explain my rationale for why the movie didnt reach my tear threshold.

Overall, i feel that the show is about 2 selfish people. K was selfish to hide his illness from Cream as he felt she didnt need another heartbreak after she lost her family at 16. therefore he planned her relationship for her and manipulated people into getting his desired outcome in which he believed that Cream would be happy. and like what cindy said, he wanted to just slowly disappear from her life and pretend he never existed. Cream was selfish to ruin another guy’s life by pretending to be in love with him and marrying him just to make K happy?

All in all i feel that both are just selfish in the sense that they had 10 years together but neither of them cherished the time together? it's like that quote about Chopin in the 2007 Jay Chou movie Secret in which Jay was saying that it was sad Chopin had to be separated from his wife lover (omg i googled. it was about him and a guy called George Sand) but then the main female lead said no, they had 10 years together which was a long time and because they cherished the 10 years they were beautiful moments. Yes K and Cream also had the 10 years together but they didn’t do anything. They didn’t say the words they wanted to say, they didn’t live out the moments that mattered, and that’s why the last few months in which K was dying they had a lot of regrets. and tbh, i dont believe platonic friends exist, not when they kissed each other and slept with each other?? the guy wont get horny one meh? how can they not have s*x once? okay crudeness aside, i think the movie just wants to bring out how pure their love for each other is, albeit how ridiculous it sounds.

and i guess that is the underlying theme for the movie? pure love. agape. like 《那些年》which had the theme of “错过” and《少女时代》which was “守护” (i read some article which said this!) i think there should be a theme for More than Blue also. which is quite sweet tbh. and which reminds me of a video i watched, of this Buddhist nun (her name is Tenzin Palmo! i googled hehe) explaining the difference between genuine love and attachment. one particular line i like about what she said is this: "Genuine love says, I love you, therefore I want you to be happy. If that includes me, great! If it doesn't include me, I just want your happiness." <3 like though K genuinely wishes that he could be with Cream forever but he couldnt, he just wanted her to be happy. the purest of purest form of genuine love aww. though i still believe that if you really love someone you shouldnt hide the truth. yes the truth may hurt but in times like this, i rather know the truth so that i can live out the last days with you, and those moments will be perfect because i wont have any regrets. well, though i didnt tear, it really made me think a lot about life. about those close to me, how much i was willing to sacrifice and what i would actually do if i were the female lead. *spoilers alert* i think i might actually choose to kill myself too if i were in her shoes ): cant exactly say i have experienced as deeply as her except maybe leo passed away? the ending was really shocking but i really admire her decision (':

sidenote: i kinda didnt like the main female char cos she's very weird and annoying? (are taiwanese girls all like that??) but im was quite inspired to get bangs cos of her hahaha (i really did cut side bangs but it's very fail cos i think my hair is too long and i still can tuck the bangs behind my ears?)

and and. K didnt portray someone with leukaemia very well. patients gradually grow progressively weak so they wont like just be fine one day and faint the other? not like K in the movie lol. and he didnt even look sickly at all. where's the pale face and lips? maybe that's why i didnt feel very sad also hahahah

and and and. the theme song by A-lin very nice hehe
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BRcudpJzy1I